Let Your Heart Guid You. It Whispers, So Listen Carefully..

Let Your Heart Guide You. It Whispers, So Listen Carefully..

I think being me is one of th greatest bleassings from God. I don't have to try harder to get along with ppl around me, just be myself things would be easier tho. And I'll do my best with th time that i have in life. Never regrets th past, life's too short for me to be stuck in th past whr I can't change anything..

Saturday, December 10, 2011

Hari Enam Yg Bosan!

Mode: Bored To Death!
Date: 10.12.2011 (4.05 PM)
Location: Home

Woke up late. Oh, well, holiday. So who care?! Ngeh3. Berus gigi. Enjoy-ing my brunch (dgn lahapny). Then, online. Suddenly, getting bored online. Going downstairs, checkin anything tat i can eat. Emm, kuih cempedak! Yummehh. Back to my room. Not long after tat, mom came to my room asking me to cut her hair.

Me: Ba mn tu gunting?
Mom: (senyum2) teda.
[sa npk gunting kain. Jeng3]
Me: Tu na mak! (sambil ketawa kuat2)
Mom: shh.. Budu.. (murkah sa mengilai)
Me: Ba marilah tp jgn nyesal.
Mom: (risau kali terpentan) Nda payahla. P kedai jak.
Me: (memaksa) maarilahh aku gunting...
Mom: Sn bwh la.
[excited sa turun cpt2]
Me: Ba cpt!!
Mom: (cuci rambut lg)
Me: mau jg kasi basah.
Mom: spya rata!
[sa berdiri da dgn yakin sambil pgg gunting n sisir. Ni kalila! Mama sa duduk, cerewet lg. Demand mcm sa btul2 d saloon!]
Me: (sambil ktwa) ba ada la yg hilang jari kai gunting bsr!
Mom: (ketawa, maka risau telinganya tergunting.)
[siap, wlupn berketawa bising2 mama sa. Trus mama sa ckp..]
Mom: dulu2 aku pandai ba ptg rmbt ku sendiri.
Me: nahh... Ptg la rmbt ku ckit.
Mom: mari ku ptg.
[nyata sa excited. Maka br jg sa ptg rmbt few days ago.]
Me: (dgn nada yg yakin) ba mak cpt la. Tp jgn telampau pindik ah.
Mom: (pgg gunting da) ba sampai mn ni? Mo ptg mcm mn? (ketawa)
Me: 1 atau 2 inci jak.
Mom: bikin mu apa klu gtu.
Me: ba cptla.
[siuk jak mama ku ptg, sa mula gentar, lalu..]
Me: Mak ko ptg mcm mn tu?
Mom: kasi lurus lu d bwh br la kasi layer (tenang jak dia jwb)
Me: (sambil ktwa geli hati maka gusar uda.) awas ah klu buruk!
[nda puas hati sa pusing tgo d lantai]
Me: Mak!! Aku bilang 1inci jak! Ini brpa inci?? (sambil ktwa n gerigitan)
Mom: (sambil ketawa tendang2 tu rmbt spya sa tia npk) klu gtu jak bikin apa. Na cantik ba ni lurus da. Blm lg kasi layer.
Me: apa lg mo layer? Nda payah la..(terpentan uda)

*semua ini berlaku krn kebosanan melanda d hari sabtu! Last2 rambut santik2 uda layer jd rata ada sumpak lg! Grrrr*

How Come U Can Smile So Much?

It's darn hard to smile sometimes in life through things that happened u dun even know that u dun understand and u dont know if on earth u could get through it. But yeah that's life. Sometimes it made u smile, laughs but sometimes it can be so hard instead. It's th best of times and the worst of times either. But at th end of th day, th only best thing u could ever do is just to think less and love ur life more..

Sunday, October 9, 2011

Mizz Nina feat.Colby O'Donis - What you waiting for [ Official Music Vid...

MAIGAD! how on earth i dun even knew that Colby O'Donis feat. this song with Miss Nina?! i meant, i've heard this song b4 [like a number of times already] but never know its miss nina! im so proud of her!


Though i don't really like the way she moves her body, still i adore this woman to bits! she's so Hot + lucky cuz she made it with Flo Rida yo! Go Go Miss Nina!!!

Tuesday, September 20, 2011


"Sabar Tabah Cekal".. Lord, im so stressed. Pls, make it easy for me. Im begging u. I've been struggling for this lately. It hurts me darn much & it bring tears either. Its not that im being ungrateful, i just can't help myself tho! I've became weak.. and weaker each day. It felt like years while its not!

Monday, September 19, 2011

I'm Just An Ordinary Person

Yeah, i'm just an ordinary person. So don't ever expect something extraordinary from me. I could be a good friend, a good person as u could ever imagine IF ONLY u treat me well either. I promise u that.

Every person in this world has an equal opportunity to be a wise judge, regardless of their background or life experiences.

Thursday, August 11, 2011

Mentally Exhausted

huh.. *sigh*

I've been darn struggling for these few months back, trying my very best to be the best among the best, yet, its eating me up tho! I couldn't stand it no more. Its not that i don't work harder, but, im just too sick of this life already. I've been through so much here. Indeed, i 've never knew that life is so pathetic when u don't have someone to lend u a hand when u needed it the most. Im so sick to death now. So much to share, but somehow, i don't know how to express it. huhh..

Thursday, July 21, 2011


Everything went so well today. I was so excited for "karnival bakat prasekolah", but unfortunately my mood turns into *%&$*%$$#@#.. Arrgghhh.. $***! That stupid moron judges should go die! I officially HATE that stupid judges now! Im being totally serious when i say this, "U CAN GO & F*** YOUR BLOODY-BRAIN B****!" I had a great student who should wins the competition just now. Indeed, she's the only student who can read ENGLISH perfectly with good grammar & pronounciation . But F*** Y** judges u made a big mistake in judging. How come my brilliant student got third place only?! Instead, u blamed us without looking at your own fault. Admit it lah B**** that is your fault. CARELESS JUDGES (die die die..)! U're not more than just a moron judge with bloody-f******-silly brain. For this u should die! ASSHOLE!

OK, yeah im so emo now. But dammit, who care?! Still, that ASSHOLES should go DIE!

Sunday, July 3, 2011


WHY la, why? why? it's not that im not trying, yet it has been such a struggle. I've tried my F****** best to accept what comes to me, totally & completely so that i could appreciate it & learn from it to bring out the best side of me. But, F*** i still had those negativity in me. How on earth i wish that some day i could love this place just like KK, but it seems like, huhh it will NEVER be! God, im such a bad person, ain't me? I have so much wrong with me, uh? Forgive me dear Allah SWT. I just can't help myself anymore. Im so sick of it already :(

Sunday, June 12, 2011



Ralph Waldo Emerson once said "When it is dark enough, you can see the stars", HELL i can't even see any lights in KB ok! I had tried my f****** best to adapt myself BUT unfortunately, FAILED all over again. oH dear Lord i can't help myself. Im so sorry, im SO not into this place. IDK why but somehow it felt freaking sad every time i had to get back to that place again and again . For God's sake I love my job but not that place! If only i can drive, i'll drive kk-kb, kb-kk everyday. Sigh. So i guess its a sign that I need to learn driving NOW! Yeah by hook or by crook, I HAVE TO! I won't let myself staying thr any longer.

Monday, May 16, 2011


Since i was a kid I've never dreamed to become a teacher. I'm still freaking remember when my teacher asked me about my ambition, becoming a teacher was never been gets into my thought. It's never been a choice indeed. But, YES, I'm a teacher now! I was like "is it real or what?" Well, i had no idea for this. But, one thing for sure, i take it positively & believe that something good will come out of it. Therefore, i won't have any regrets on it cus i believe that Lord knows best of why He chooses me. It's a blessed to be a teacher. Not all of th ppl out there knows how much sacrifices a teacher did in her/his entire life just to show us ways in which to grow so we can decide how to live & how to do what's right instead of wrong, and to raise us up to become a better person with each discovery. Now i'm more thankful since am a teacher too. I've been through so much within these 4 months & 16 days. I've been darn struggling for this lately, and finally, i found in myself something that i was passionate about, which was TEACHING. I put my heart & soul into it. I just hope that Lord will always guide me & give me th strength.

Here, I wanna wish a HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY to all teachers out there. We smile at the student who never sees a smile. We give a pencil to the student who doesn't have one. We take a few extra minutes to help "that" student. We spent our own money to buy what is needed. We believe in the student everyone else has given up on. We’re having hope, even when things look hopeless. We made it TEACHERS! HAPPY TEACHER’S DAY once again. May our day be filled with blessing & beautiful colors. Way to go, so i wish all of us th best!

Thursday, April 28, 2011

Time goes by a lot slower when u miss th one u love. And it hurt! I miss my dad so freaking much. I just couldn’t believe that i lose my dad at th age of 21. It’s pretty hard when u lose a loved one so suddenly. Year by year i still grieve but it’s less painful than it was previously. How on earth i can 4get him, evn though sometimes i just wish i could. But i just can’t! It’s darn true that u’ll never know what u hve until u lose it & once u lose it u can never get it back! *sigh* My life felt like it was completely upside down. I wasn’t so sure how i was going to make it through all of this without him. I knew that i couldn’t just seclude myself & cry, evn though i really wanted to. I had to move 4ward & gather th strength needed to survive. But it wasn’t easy & i still hve my moments of bursting into tears & sadness. It has been such a struggle though!

Lord, i miss him so much :(

Sunday, April 24, 2011


I wish life could be as simple as th way th sun shines on a tree. But, life ain't that easy to be expected & interpret it. Most of th times, we're left puzzled with th sequence of events that happened in our lives. And yeah, th only ways to see what lies in th future is to create it urself.

~sigh~ Why is evry thing seems so hard?


On ur birthday lots of ppl are thinking of u. I just wanted to let u know that i’m one of them. Happy birthday chikaro! Now u’re one year older. I just want u to know that i still care for u th same! In this entire world, whr everything seems uncertain only one thing is definite, u’ll always be my BFF beyond words, beyond time & beyond distance. With u even th bad times are good! Thanks for being such an awesome friend.
I hope ur birthday is as happy as u’ve made me & others. I’m wishing u all th great things in life & i hope this day will bring u an extra share of all that makes u happiest. Ur best years are still ahead of u. So all th best in th year to come. May ur days be filled with sunshine & beautiful colors. HAPPY BIRTHDAY once again RAZZIAH HAROON!

Monday, April 11, 2011


Suddenly missing Natalia Loyolla so much. She's 1 of my best childhood's partner. It's been a long time since tat day. We shared th laughs, gossips, crimes, tears & learning! I got like a bunch of sweet & bitter memories with her. Th memory of it makes me laugh. Always! :P

Sunday, April 10, 2011



this one as well!

OMG! who ever wants to give me presents, pls buy me this! hahaha..

Saturday, April 9, 2011


Over time ppl change, with or w/out reasons. It's a fact of life that human nature can't be predicted. The way they act/behave is so unexpected! So why do we even care so often?

Sunday, April 3, 2011

2 Weeks Left!

It's been 3months! OMG, i can't believe it! I can't even imagine how i survived living in a place which i've never thought i would stay at! I was like "for real!?" But yeah, i am! I've been tru so much within these 3months. And for God's sake, i don't like KB! I've tried my best to make myself comfortable, but i can't! Maybe it's because of th ppl itself & their culture makes me feel so annoyed. Another 2weeks to go then am DONE!

Time pls fly fast!!!

Sunday, March 13, 2011

Saturday, March 12, 2011

Souvenir From London & Macau!!

My London & Macau's T-shirt..

my London's keychain & my Victoria's Secret Bombshell (so wangi one!)!!

Tq my dearest bestie EFFA MENDOZA for th souvenir.. I LoVe U to BITS!

Tuesday, March 8, 2011


Super exhausted! Thr're like a ton of things i have to do in such a little time. Darn! Im so sick of it already. Sometimes i felt like i wanna quit but that's insane! ~sigh~ How th hell i wish i could just stay at home and do what ever i want, so that i couldn't get exhausted everyday! aarrgghhh~~

EIBOT!! Everything worth doing is exhausting tho!

Sunday, March 6, 2011

Vacay On Nov With Besties!

My bestie Julia Limban Leo called me just now. Gosh, i missed her like so MUCH ok! and thr goes, we planned for a vacay on Nov. im freaking excited!!! Hell, it's Besties Vacay!! I bet, it's gonna be th best Vacay ever! Fun Fun FUNSSSS.... Bestie Bebe Ghulam will be joining us too!

NOVEMBER pls come fasttt!!

Sunday Again..

it's sunday! but why th hell i hate sunday? i should enjoy th day perhaps. ~sigh~ i hate it when sunday came! u know why? cuz i had to get my butt off back to KB. how th heck i can tell th entire world of how much i Hate th routine?! Gosh, i couldn't freaking imagine my life was if i stay thr longer.


God pls help me!! give me strength.. give me hopes... give me what i want, at least for this one time only. i desperately begging U!

me HeaRTs me MoM mucho!

i was so thirsty just now. so i go downstairs to take some drinks. and yeah my mom is still awake, watching tv. so i joined her but just for a while then im back to my room after taking my drinks. hell, i don't have any idea why i suddenly feel so EMO now! when im with my mom just now, i felt so....ok i don't know how to express the feeling. *failed*

i was looking at her and realize that she's getting older yet i still don't spend more times with her. i've been a real bad daughter uh?! ~sigh~ im so sorry mom! and i meant it.. thr's no way i can really thank u mom for all u did for me nevertheless i must make it a habit to keep reminding myself of th various sacrifices u made while raising me.

u're th sweetest gift from God to me. forgive me and i swear to God im gonna be a good daughter of urs..

Friday, March 4, 2011


It's friday peeps!! I Love friday.. I can pack my things & go home after teaching.. Home sweet home! Thr's no otha place as good as ur home. Whr u can do anything u like w/out the feeling of awkward! KK im coming home in a while...

Thursday, March 3, 2011


OMG, i can't wait 4 th semester break ok! time pls, am begging u...fly fast so i dun have to wait any longer. i need to get my mind enough rest from any kind of things that annoyed me so much. i seriously need a vacay!!! March, bring it on!!!!

It's either Island or KK Adventure.. ermm... or it might be Kundasang?! oK... mana2 seja as long as im awayyyy from th school!! *rofl*

come fast! come fast!! come fastttt!!!!

Internship oH Internship!!

Week 6 of internship.. It was like 6years ok! Been through so many things. I had to deal with th kids all by myself w/out any help from th teachers! Can u just imagine it? I don't have any experience in teaching & am seriously needs guide from them, at least, to improve & polish my skills of teaching but they're so f****** selfish!

Supposedly, internships provide an opportunity to get ur feet wet in a career that u're interested in learning more about, but what happened to me is i had to do everything alone w/out any guideline given to me! See, poor me eh?!

All these silly thingy are seriously gets into my nerve system! Am so freaking can't wait to finish this internship. For God's Sake, pls get me th hell out of this place! I can't get along with them any longer!

I learned a lot from this internship. What ever happened i still loves th kids! I am trying my very best to help & teach them sincerely. Even though sometimes i do gets freak out by their attitude, but that's th beauty of a kid. Yeah, i LoVe them so much!

They're my sunshine :)

Friday, February 25, 2011

a MUST have for a woman!

teramat cantekk ok!

im so in LoVe with tis! gonna get one for myself someday! auww

i want it !!!