IT’S A NEW DAY BUT IT ALL FEELS OLD TO ME

Another boring day! OMG.. OMG.. I seriously can’t stand it. Im so restless and I don’t even know what to do right now. Like somehow it felt like u’ve been bulldozed in ur sleep ok!! I can feel like a part of me is gone and my brain is bursting out of my head la.. Sigh..

The boredom is KILLING me!! Arghhh..

Yes, life was pathetic if u got nothing to do. It felt so darn sick to death man! Try to be in my shoes then only u’ll know how it felt exactly. Apparently it will drives u crazy ok. Haha.. But, am not crazy yet.. soon, maybe! But, only if I couldn’t stop myself from complaining this and that all the time la ok. Wakaka..

OMG, I better stop being non sense la ok.. or else I should seriously consider seeking professional counseling! And for real that’s wasn’t my lifelong dream after all.. Lol!!

Gotta go! Byee..

XoXo *muahhh*

aM BaCK aGaiN!!

Hey y’all! Ok, I’m so sorry cus I’ve been a bad blogger (I know right..).. I’ve been so darn lazy to blogging lately man. Yeap, very lame uhh? Sigh.. Without a doubt, I’ve always wanted to blogging, like everyday, but hell am such not that super RAJIN enough to gets my blog updated everyday la ok. But, there’s an excuse for FACEBOOK la, especially the FARMVILLE.. Haha..

It’s 2010!!

Speaking about 2009, I had a fabulous 2009. The year ended off well with my graduation on early October. Yeah, I’m GRADUATED!!! So YAY I’ve a good excuse to enjoy my so long holiday after 3 years of struggling with the assignments, notes and exams uhh. But, the sad thing is I’ve to be separated from one of my bestest BFFs “JuLia LimBan LeO” after 3 years being so closed. Lots of things that we’ve shared during that 3 years man! For sadness, happiness, and gossiping, of cos! Hehe.. She moved back to Miri after our graduation ceremony. Now, I missed her so darn much! :)

Ok, enough for being so emo! Lol!!

Over the holiday last November, I had a SUPER-GREAT time in KL with my BFFs Bebe Ghulam and Effah, and yeah my niece, of cos! We’ve had some great times there. Awww.. Yes, KL just made me happier and enjoyed the 5 days straight to the MAX ok! *wink*

New Year just fine. I did go for the countdown event with my so-called “ging karas” and enjoyed the countdown night like there’ll be no more countdown after that night. Haha.. That’s silly enough uh? Lol!

2010!! New hopes…

Job haunting!! Sigh.. JOB, this word is killing me ok! Plus, I am soOo LaZy to find one.. But, yeah I got to thinking, PLEASE laa! That is such a very lame excuse. I’d never do it as if I kept making excuses.. So, starting from now,I put on a new determination in me. And y’all know what? Despite all that challenging and reaching every hard to reach nook and cranny, I will never move backwards though! *wink*

Ok, I gotta go now. Take care y’all and have a blast day!

*Hugs and Kisses*

Eid-MubaraK 09'

It's day four of raya already!!! Oh man, i ate alot!! lots of delicious's food la bha kan, how la kan?! makin chomel la kunu? lol! haha.. Who cares either! ngehh! what la kan if i got nothing to do tonight. just relax2-ing at home like itik jak, i guess.. haha.. u see, jadi kili2 a bit now becouse of the foods la i think.. haha.. what la kan if the whole day i just stayed at home such like a good girl ni, bida oo kan if thr's nothing to do? Online-ing jak pun bikin SOT the OtaK la bha kan.. duhh! can't wait to meet up the bestest girlfriends la bha ni kan.. ohh pls la kan come back here ASAP to the girls (JULIA LIMBAN and ZAHEERAH BEBE)!! we go for jalan2, oh man can't wait already.. thr're much of things to be done babes!! capat la bha balik!!!! argghhh.. lol! ok before i got crazy here better sign out la kan if not am so sure jadi gila betul2 ni!! haha.. ok enough! nite ya'll!!!

PISSED OFF!!

What a boring day!!

Can ya’ll just imagine being around with a person who had stabbed u in the back with an sharp knife and twisted it a few times? Well, it was kind of painful, actually. Plus, it was a huge betrayal and it was darn fuckin’ awful, though!

Imagine if u already knew that person for not only few days but YEARS and she/he started to betray u, does it make sense to u? If it happens to u, will u going to speak to her/him again? Can u just imagine ever feelin’ comfortable being casual with someone after all that time of being so close, then she/he betrayed u?

It happened, seriously! Am one of the victims. Lols! I keep on thinking about it on and on, wonderin’ why it happened to me. Tell ya’ll what, I often imagined myself literally wringin’ that bloody moron sluttish’s neck and kick the ass. It was so irritatin’ and annoyin’ to befriend with this kind of person. If ever I could turn back the time and choose to not befriend with that sluttish, I swear I will!

But, hell! It was kind of WEIRDO, cause in actuality I had a respectful relationship with that sluttish, though, she has betrayed and back-stabbed me. Weird, uh? But, it’s ok then, I do believe in karma and it goes around. U’LL GET YOURS SOON MY DEAR BLOODY UGLY MORON SLUTTISH!!

Ok enough !! Lols!!

BLOGGIN' IS A THERAPEUTIC!!!

I 1st started bloggin' 5 years back through FRIENDSTER. I actually bloggin' just for the fun of it. Somehow, since my 1st blog post i found that bloggin' is the best way for me to express myself. Besides, my blog was meant to allow my friends to be updated with my life. But life has been preety busy, so i've ignored my blog for quite a long time, until i've finished with my internship.

Only then, i've decided to start bloggin' again. But this time through BLOGSPOT, of course! hee! Why I choosed bloggin' as a way to express myself? well, tell ya'll that i'm a person who prefered to hold back my feelings cause am SO not good at verbalizin' them, as i always told myself to NOT showing my vulnerable to anybody. ANYBODY!

For me, it was very the SO bloody PITEOUS and it caused myself felt awkward showing what's inside me to the rest of the world. It was like, OMG! But i ended up to start bloggin' as i found that it was the only way for me to express everything inside me. At 1st i was a little unsure about the intention of using blogspot because I’m not exactly a computer whiz and I thought it would be a bit complicated.

But, it only took me a day to get started with the Blogspot and I got my 1st blog post after a day of struggling on it. It's sounds a bit KETINGGALAN, but I’m still surprised at how easy it was to express urself through bloggin'. Lols! I mostly used my computer for checking my email and FACEBOOKING. I really wish I would have found this blogspot earlier! Lols!

After all, aM BacK!!

Whoaa.. It’s been really awhile since my last time bloggin’, uh? Well, I’ve been through the mad rush of internship and mini thesis for few weeks ago. ~Sigh~ what a tough job it’s been, but worth it at the end. *Wink* Tell ya’ll what, am a type of person who loves last minute work. Yeah, it’s really a bad habit, but guess what, am still a SUCKER for last minute work, ok! I’ve tried extraordinarily hard to get rid of that, but I just couldn’t make it. To be frank, I don’t enjoy doin’ things earlier, it’s like no fun at all. Weird, uh? Well, that’s me! Ok lets just 4get about it.


Finally, am havin’ a bloody good time now. No more mornin’ classes, No more assignments, No more exams, No more lectures, No more notes to read, and just No More!! *Big Smile* Lols! Btw, I was wonderin’, there are a ton of famous ppl like Jim Carrey, Quentin Tarantino, Joe Di Maggio, and Mark Twain never even went to high school or finished with their high school. That’s high school, 4get about college. But, they never even bothered, yet their life was stunnin’!! (I can smell jealousy in me right now. Lol!)


Somehow, it seems like if u’re destined for greatness, u’re goin’ to get there whether u have a high school dip or not. Which makes me think that it must work the same in the other direction too. Like, if u’re destined to be a loser, nothin’ u do is goin’ to change that. Not high school, not college, nothin’!! Ok, if I put myself in this situation, I guess the best thing for me to do is just accept my destiny and if that’s the same as just givin’ up, then my instinct’s right. I am a LOSER! But, what’s the point in tryin’ when u already know u’re goin’ to fail? That just seems bloody stupid…


Back to the reality, I shouldn’t let my emotions take over, if not I’ll be outplayed. So, the best thing is, I just have to go with whatever happens, happens.. And always remember that things happened for a reason.. *smiling*


Ok, am done for today. I’ll be back with my new story soon. Take care all!!

Hard To Say “IM SORRY”

I had never been a mornin’ person & wasn’t too happy about getting’ up as early as 6 am in th mornin’ everyday. Arrrgghhhh, am so sick of it! But, by hook or by crook, I have to, for th sake of internship! Sabar aja lah kan. Lol! Another 4 weeks to go, after tht, everythin’ will get bck to normal. Hee! Btw, when I woke up this mornin’, I get immediately to ponder why it is so hard for us to say sorry. It happened! I’ve been in ths situation once (or maybe more!). No doubt, it’s so frikin’ hard to utter th words IM SORRY, especially when we’re obviously wrong.

Am sure yall gonna agree with me if I says tht just th idea of havin’ to apologise for somethin’ we’ve done fills us with dread. Don’t yall? Moreover, it gets harder when we really have done somethin’ grievously wrong, like betrayin’ a friend’s confidence or sayin’ somethin’ hurtful in a CARELESS MOMENT. Hell, such a big mistake babes! For real, I was wonderin’ why we find it so hard to utter th 2 words “IM SORRY”, is really b’cus of our pride. For me, apologizin’ & admittin’ to our mistakes take responsibility, maturity, & humility on our part. All of which are not tht easy no matter whether u’re 17 or 60! Still, however hard it is, sayin’ sorry is vital in maintainin’ our relationship with a friend, parent or siblings, & not doin’ so when thr’s a need to can only make things worse. Undeniably, it’s like any other skill & habit, we’ve got to learn how to really say sorry & mean it. After all, thr’s nothin’ to lose if a relationship could be on th mean from it!

Whoa, I have to stop now. Still have other things to do. Better get on with it though. Lols! :p